Little Stories

Good Evening. Welp my sleep schedule is officially fucked I woke up yesterday at like 2pm and was up till 7am. I made a lot of Tik Tok draft so at least I was doing something. Literally the only thing I do consistently is update this blog that nobody reads. That’s okay though. I was so close to having all my shit together before this happened. I had a good routine, I was almost debt free, I was figuring out my next steps for college, I liked my job and then the world decides to go to hell in a hand basket. I am going to get my shit back together. I am going to use my stimulus check to pay off my remaining debt balance. I will try and email my adviser see what I can do. I am still doing pretty OK in school so not all is lost. This will blow over in a few more weeks (fingers crossed) and I will be able to go back to work with any luck. Its all going to be okay. I just need to pull myself out of my funk and take control of the things I can. I am going to get my sleep schedule back on track tonight whether I have to stay up all night or just take some ZQuil to make myself sleep. Then I am going to do my best to stick to the schedule I had made for myself a couple of days ago. I am going to limit the amount of time I am on my phone cause lord knows I am on that thing WAY to much. Everything is going to be fine!

Happy two weeks! I am actually loosing it I swear. I was up to nearly 6 AM and I didn’t wake up till two, I haven’t done that since like my early college days. I have done literally nothing today and I just feel blah. That is probably mostly because the red river has decided to make an appearance and my body is in a state of revolt. I think I am just going to take a hot shower and spend the rest of the night sulking.

Happy April Fools Day! I have done nothing but watch more Tiger King, get all dressed up to take some pictures and make a Tik Tok, make dinner and shower. Its been an incredibly lazy day but at like 1:30 this morning we did find out we had a baby squirrel also quarantining with us. We were able to trap him in our fire place (which is more then likely how he got in the house) so hopefully he has climbed back out. My dog was zero help in this whole process. I also am in desperate need of backed goods but have no desire to wash the dishes to make them.

Good Afternoon! Yesterday was somewhat a success in that I finished my Art assignment even though I really did not want to. I came this close to skipping it but I didn’t and I just did it. So 10 points for Hufflepuff for that (also yes I am an official Hufflepuff according to Pottermore quiz). Other then my art homework I did the dishes, made brownies and was up till like 5 am watching Tiger King. That show is absolutely insane man I watch it with my jaw dropped because like I didn’t know people could be that insane and yet hear we are. If you have a Netflix account, or access to a Netflix account, and you haven’t already watched it I highly recommend it you will not be dissapointed.

So far today I have made lunch, watched another episode of Tiger King (like seriously watch it!) and I have showered and had a dance party to Broadway hits. I am hopefully going to finish not only Legend today, but also my audio book and then i will hopefully have my March wrap up published tomorrow. Overall the past three days haven’t been that bad. Plus we have 2 out of 8 weeks done just 6 more to go. At least I hope its only 6 more.

Good Afternoon! Yesterday was actually a pretty good day. I was able to get all my assignments and my test done and I got pretty good grades on all of them. I was doing school work for like 12 hours though so I am going to try my best and get a bit done each day. that way I am not doing it all in one day. Hopefully I can keep this momentum going!

Good Morning! Mentally I am not feeling well. I kind just want to crawl into a hole and never come out, but that’s not what we are going to do. My mom wants to clean the house a bit and I really need to study. So that’s what I am going to attempt to do. I am going to try my very best to be off my phone. Lets see how this goes.

Nothing was accomplished other then I did my makeup for the first time in ages, read a bit more of Legend, and I started a new candle. I am loosing my mind and Just kinda want to do nothing but sleep all day. My Tik Tok obsession grows stronger and I think I’m just going to go to bed. Sleep is the only comfort I have right now.

Good Evening! The yesterday and today have not been great motivation wise. I made a schedule yesterday that I hoped to start today, but that did not happen whatsoever. I spent most of today on Tik Tok (really its an addiction at this point) and I ended up taking a 4 hour nap today. I fell unmotivated and disinterested in everything lately and its not great. I am falling into my depression routine hard and I really don’t want to go back there again. Since I didn’t wake up from my nap till like 9pm I think I am going to try and reset my sleep and get somethings done. I have always tended to be more productive at night. Hopefully this goes well.

We made it a whole week! I am slightly losing it and I am most definitely missing the structure (and paycheck) work provided. I get my last paycheck for the foreseeable future tomorrow which is arguably really scary and stressful. I almost had my fucking shit together before all of this. I was three paychecks away from having all my debt payed off and I was doing well in school. I was this close I tell you and then BAM global pandemic and stock market crash. I have just lost all my motivation. I just done want to do anything but eat and there is no food in my house (well I mean there is but I am not much of a cook so there is that, but there are definitely no snacks.) Its going to be okay though! Its all going to be okay. This will hopefully blow over in a few weeks, maybe a month or two, and everyone will be able to get back to work and it will all be okay.

I Was semi-productive yesterday. I did my laundry, washed my sheets, bathed Charlie, and vacuumed. Last night was a completely different story though. I haven’t had insomnia that bad in a very very long time. I didn’t got to sleep till nearly 5 am! Its my number one tell that I am going down hill is when I cant sleep to save my life. I need to find away to inject structure into my life. Cause I don’t even want to know what happens if I don’t. I didn’t study or read, but I swear on all that is holy I will so it today. I also suggested bringing back Family Movie Night because we are all stuck in the house together so might as well so that’s tonight. We are going to watch Jumanji: The Next Level and I am pretty excited about it.

Good Morning or I guess at this point Good Afternoon. I have actually been up since about 10ish today and I have managed to break up the routine a bit. I gave my puppy, Charlie, a bath and I went to the grocery store cause we are in desperate need of milk. Yesterday I accomplished absolutely nothing I literally only left my bed for food and to use the bathroom I caught up on some shows and spent a good amount of time on my phone. I am going to accomplish things today! I need to accomplish things today.

I have stripped my bed so I can’t lay in all day and also to wash the sheets cause they really need it. I am going to finish my laundry and I am going to read and study. I have my biology test tomorrow and I do need a good grade on it. I got this!