Nothing was accomplished other then I did my makeup for the first time in ages, read a bit more of Legend, and I started a new candle. I am loosing my mind and Just kinda want to do nothing but sleep all day. My Tik Tok obsession grows stronger and I think I’m just going to go to bed. Sleep is the only comfort I have right now.
Good Evening! The yesterday and today have not been great motivation wise. I made a schedule yesterday that I hoped to start today, but that did not happen whatsoever. I spent most of today on Tik Tok (really its an addiction at this point) and I ended up taking a 4 hour nap today. I fell unmotivated and disinterested in everything lately and its not great. I am falling into my depression routine hard and I really don’t want to go back there again. Since I didn’t wake up from my nap till like 9pm I think I am going to try and reset my sleep and get somethings done. I have always tended to be more productive at night. Hopefully this goes well.
We made it a whole week! I am slightly losing it and I am most definitely missing the structure (and paycheck) work provided. I get my last paycheck for the foreseeable future tomorrow which is arguably really scary and stressful. I almost had my fucking shit together before all of this. I was three paychecks away from having all my debt payed off and I was doing well in school. I was this close I tell you and then BAM global pandemic and stock market crash. I have just lost all my motivation. I just done want to do anything but eat and there is no food in my house (well I mean there is but I am not much of a cook so there is that, but there are definitely no snacks.) Its going to be okay though! Its all going to be okay. This will hopefully blow over in a few weeks, maybe a month or two, and everyone will be able to get back to work and it will all be okay.
I Was semi-productive yesterday. I did my laundry, washed my sheets, bathed Charlie, and vacuumed. Last night was a completely different story though. I haven’t had insomnia that bad in a very very long time. I didn’t got to sleep till nearly 5 am! Its my number one tell that I am going down hill is when I cant sleep to save my life. I need to find away to inject structure into my life. Cause I don’t even want to know what happens if I don’t. I didn’t study or read, but I swear on all that is holy I will so it today. I also suggested bringing back Family Movie Night because we are all stuck in the house together so might as well so that’s tonight. We are going to watch Jumanji: The Next Level and I am pretty excited about it.
Good Morning or I guess at this point Good Afternoon. I have actually been up since about 10ish today and I have managed to break up the routine a bit. I gave my puppy, Charlie, a bath and I went to the grocery store cause we are in desperate need of milk. Yesterday I accomplished absolutely nothing I literally only left my bed for food and to use the bathroom I caught up on some shows and spent a good amount of time on my phone. I am going to accomplish things today! I need to accomplish things today.
I have stripped my bed so I can’t lay in all day and also to wash the sheets cause they really need it. I am going to finish my laundry and I am going to read and study. I have my biology test tomorrow and I do need a good grade on it. I got this!
Good Morning, Lovelies! I simultaneously can’t believe its already day 5 and only day 5 at the same time. I was actually able to get a chapter of Biology read yesterday and while I didn’t finish my book I did get some of it read. I even went to bed before midnight and woke up at 8 am today which is really nice. Starting to feel a bit more on track then I have in the past couple of days.
Today’s plan is pretty much yesterdays plan. I have about 42 pages of reading I need to get done across three different subjects and i would also like to finish Love & Luck and get a good way in Legend. I also only have a few hours left in my audiobook so maybe I could finish that today or tomorrow, we shall see. But first is is time to wash my face and have some breakfast.
Good Morning! So yesterday was not as productive as I would have liked it to be. I did read 100 pages of my book, but other then that I facetimed my friend and watched The Voice for most of the day. I did learn how to make meatloaf though. Last night was pretty terrible though. I had such bad insomnia and I felt a bit manic like I had to be doing something so I didn’t get to bed till nearly 3:30 am which caused me to not wake up till nearly noon. Which is most definitely not what I planed at all.
I will be productive today! I have to be I have a test at the end of this week that I really need to do great in. I also will finish my book because its getting pretty good! Today will be productive and good. Now I am going to get some coffee and maybe some food!
Good Morning! or I guess afternoon at this point. I have been pretty consistent about waking up around 11 everyday, but I really want to be waking up around 8 or 9 so I am going to try and get myself to sleep earlier tonight. I was successful in getting all 569 of my books organized, but they are not exactly how i would like them. Two of my shelves broke and even with those two I don’t really have the room for all of them so I have stacks everywhere, but at least everything is now clean and organized. I also took a shower for those of you wondering. I feel much better and I am ready to get some food and coffee.
Today’s game plan consist of studying and getting ready for school to start up again tomorrow. I also really want to finish my book today possibly. If i finish three books by the 30th I will have beaten my previous most read books in a month by one which is really cool, but school is going to be my first priority. Wish me luck! also don’t forget to wash your hands.
Good Morning! Yesterday was very productive. I got all my clothes and makeup cleaned out and facetimed two of my friends. I got all my bookshelves cleaned out and the books separated, but I only have the black books re-shelved. Charlie, my puppy, was not happy when she came to bed last night. She sleeps in my room and there are kinda books everywhere.
I do feel myself slipping from my normal routines though which is not good. I am waking up later and I haven’t showered in two days, gross i know, but I am going to try and get myself back on track today. Once everything is clean I will have a bit more “freedom” so I can get myself back on track. Hopefully I can finish my book and study a bit in addition to finishing up my books.
Good Morning! It is March 20, 2020 and it is my first day of self quarantine due to COVID-19. Up until this point I was still going to work and interacting with the general public, but yesterday my store decided to close down indefinitely. So I am now officially out of a job for the foreseeable future and can practice self isolation and social distancing as the CDC recommends. Its a very strange feeling not having to go to work when I know I normally would be going to work. I have some plans on hopefully keeping my mental health above water and making sure I don’t go absolutely insane during the next two to six weeks (at least I really hop its not longer then six weeks.)
So far today I have woken up at the somewhat decent hour of 11 am. I had some trouble getting to sleep last night so I decided to be somewhat proactive and get a jump on my days todo list. I was able to clean out my hanging clothes (my shirts, dresses, hoodies, ect.) and I am getting rid of 48 articles of clothing and I cleaned my desk and cleaned it out a bit. Today’s todo list for the rest of the day is: finish cleaning out my closet and to reorganize all my books and study a bit.
Welcome to my February warp up! At least I am only three weeks late this time instead of two months. I am getting better. I am still trying to get into a routine that works for me. I read a total of two books this month one physical and one audio.
The Kiss Quotient by Helen Hoang is the physical book that I read. I was excited to read this book cause not only was it about a neurodiverse female lead, but she also works in a STEM career and she was the one who was wealthier. This book turned stereotypes on their head and that really intrigued me. Stella Lane is an econometrician with Asperger’s and spends all of her time immersed in algorithms. Its her happy place and romance is the furthest thing from her mind. Her mother on the other hand is desperately trying to marry her off to someone, specifically her coworker Philip James. Enter Micheal Phan, a male escort Stella hires to help her get over her sensory issues when it comes to intimacy and sex. Micheal has issues of his own, from his moms health and his on hold dreams, hes a equation that Stella can’t quite crack. Again I was actually quite excited about this book, not only cause of Stella, but also because Helen Hoang has Autism Spectrum Disorder. I was excited to read about a neurodiverse character written by someone who is neurodiverse. Unfortunately I hated this book. It took me nearly a month to read and I gave it one star. It dragged in most places and the characters seemed to be pretty flat. I didn’t feel a connection to any of them. Now I will say the sex scenes in this book were hella steamy! Just those scenes alone would be five stars. I just felt that there was drama where there shouldn’t have been and no drama where there should have been. It was also very insta-lovey for me. I am not a fan of the inst-love trope in YA or adult novels. I also couldn’t believe how quickly Stella got over her sensory issues with intimacy “because it was Micheal”. Now I do not have Asperger’s nor do I know many people who do, but I know people who have similar issues with intimacy and they were not so quick to over come them. Maybe its different if you meet the “right” person or maybe that was Hoangs own experience but I just didn’t quite buy it.
I AM LOVING THIS SERIES! I have been listening to them on Audible and I really love the narrator, Moira Quirk, shes just reads them so perfectly. My favorite character is probably Dimity, mostly because she is this over the top person who just wished to be a real lady, not a spy, and travel the world, but she still goes on all these adventures with Sophronia because that’s her best friend. I do love Sophronia though. She is a perfect mix of femininity and kick assery. In Curtsies and Conspiracies, Sophronia and her friends must figure out who is really behind the schools sudden field trip to London. There is a love triangle brewing in this book between Lord Felix Mersey, Sophronia, and Phineas B. Crow (aka Soap), but I can’t even be mad at it because I honestly love both boys. This is not a case of it is obvious that she prefers one over the other. Maybe its because Sophronia and her friends don’t spend all of their time and energy talking about their romantic interests that I don’t mind that there is a love triangle going on. It also helps that both boys are very different and respect her for who she is. Neither tries to change or control her in any way. Its very refreshing for a YA novel. I also like how she ages up every book instead of the whole series taking place when she is the same age.